I had a suspicion about Phoenix for a while, it's true. But he was very, very tight lipped about everything, even until the end. It's why I originally suspected it might not be a case of trust, but rather of him being unable to speak for whatever reason that was presented. I... I felt horrible for him.
He truly was-- even Beau didn't seem to be aware of his position, and... well, I have a bit of a hard time believing he wouldn't have told her if he could, either.
They did seem very close. I can't say I knew from very much observation, though, but...
I just hope she doesn't blame him for his actions. Knowing Phoenix, I... I imagine that he would have told her whatever he could, were he able to do so safely.
I think that's why he kept that notebook so detailed. He wanted to make sure that, if he were to die and his rules were to no longer apply, that we could still benefit from everything he had to do, even without him present. I... I admire him a lot for that. For trying as hard as he could, despite whatever circumstance he was under.
I wouldn't know. I'm not entirely close with her, to be honest. It's why I hope someone who is can bridge the gap and make sure she has someone to speak to. I... I think she gets lonely.
[ah. he's talking about the break-in........
vietnam flashbacks to having to saw off akira's leg that week............. hahaha]
That week was intense, yes. I'm glad I had the help of the others. But I wouldn't call it unfair for myself. I was more concerned with making sure you were all okay, after all.
Ah... I suppose it would feel a little different for you, wouldn't it.
[being made for it isn't quite the same as just- being raised for something, or simply having the skill. he might not be anti-roomba, but he... will not argue this point with her.
he taps his fingers against his forearm, though, and his tone is- more fond, when he speaks again.]
And I believe she'll be all right. I don't think that sort of company is something she's lacking.
I suppose so. I would be the wrong person to ask, honestly. But at the very least, I don't hold resentment towards anyone for what I've had to do. It just... hurts to see any of you suffering. Even those that turn into monsters in the end. It's... hard to just watch.
[She catches that change in tone, and it warms her heart.]
You sound like you say that from experience.
I'm glad. I... I wish the two of has gotten along a little better. I always have a difficult time relating sometimes with people with more, um... forward personalities. But I do think she is very, very kind, and that she is far too quick to blame herself for things.
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I'm glad to hear my idea made sense to someone, at least.
No. I'm sorry, Nie Huaisang, but I'm afraid I'm not one of the ones who composes the notes.
I... I hope they find a way to communicate further, though.
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[a slight shake of his head.]
Well, I'll continue keeping an ear out, then.
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[but then he may just be biased toward beau.]
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I just hope she doesn't blame him for his actions. Knowing Phoenix, I... I imagine that he would have told her whatever he could, were he able to do so safely.
I think that's why he kept that notebook so detailed. He wanted to make sure that, if he were to die and his rules were to no longer apply, that we could still benefit from everything he had to do, even without him present. I... I admire him a lot for that. For trying as hard as he could, despite whatever circumstance he was under.
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[a slight smile, there. she's not really that type.]
It's certainly admirable, but you've been working hard as well, haven't you? We've all kept you busy-- a little unfairly so, I'd think.
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[At his other remarks, though, she pauses, as though surprised.]
Why would you call it unfair?
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[but, well, all he needs to say to answer her last question is:]
Eight of us at once was more than any individual has enough hands for.
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[ah. he's talking about the break-in........
vietnam flashbacks to having to saw off akira's leg that week............. hahaha]
That week was intense, yes. I'm glad I had the help of the others. But I wouldn't call it unfair for myself. I was more concerned with making sure you were all okay, after all.
It's what I'm built for.
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[being made for it isn't quite the same as just- being raised for something, or simply having the skill. he might not be anti-roomba, but he... will not argue this point with her.
he taps his fingers against his forearm, though, and his tone is- more fond, when he speaks again.]
And I believe she'll be all right. I don't think that sort of company is something she's lacking.
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[She catches that change in tone, and it warms her heart.]
You sound like you say that from experience.
I'm glad. I... I wish the two of has gotten along a little better. I always have a difficult time relating sometimes with people with more, um... forward personalities. But I do think she is very, very kind, and that she is far too quick to blame herself for things.
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[a soft hum, there.]
But you aren't wrong. She's certainly kinder than several I know, and she's been working hard to try to help learn how to put an end to all of this.