[pcs] beau

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[beau... :(

he's just going to settle cautiously on the edge of the bed.]

...I really am sorry. I never thought it would turn out this way, I-- I know you seemed fond of him.

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It's okay. [ she says, automatically. ]

He's a good kid. He's been good to me. [ her voice is quiet, but. ] It's okay. We have an antidote and. It should work.

[ a hard swallow. ] I'm glad you're okay, Sang. I'm glad they didn't try to kill you.

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I truly hope it does.

[more for beau's sake than hunter's, let's be honest, it's a good thing that 'concern' doesn't distinguish between 'concern for her' and 'concern for this kid he doesn't know' because there would be wayyy more of the former.

he reaches over to very gently set a hand on her shoulder, over the blanket.]

So am I. And I- understand you did what you needed to.

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[ she allows it, and he gets a bit of a comforted feeling from her, at least. ]

I just. We couldn't waste more time on Stefano. [ she closes her eyes. ] Wish we'd said something sooner. But it worked out.

Just have to hope people trust me still after this.

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I think they will.

[there's a long pause, there, a flicker of uncertainty.]

I don't... trust easily, miss Beau. But I still felt you were someone safe to go to.

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[ ahhhhhhhhhhhhh she scrunches up under the covers and he'll feel her experience like, a stab of - something? guilt? upset?

it's such a nice thing to say and she just. doesn't deserve it. give her a second to recover. ]

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[she's going to get a little wave of something meant to be reassuring, comforting; he's doing his best, here, he knows she's having a Bad Time.]

It was still you that said it, you know. They'll trust you.

[...more than they'll trust huaisang.]

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[ she swallows very, very hard around the lump in her throat. the comforting helps a little! she hurts, but he's being very sweet to her. ]

Maybe. Or maybe they'll second guess me when I check people. [ a beat. ] It's fine, you're alive and you're not in a cage.

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...maybe some will, but honestly, that might not be a bad thing... someone may end up unintentionally covering for a monster, so perhaps we should be more wary.

[a sigh, there, a little squeeze of his hand.]

But that will be my fault.

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Shut the fuck up, you were defending yourself. You're not at any fault. [ her tone's a little harsh. ]

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Mine for asking you to do so, I mean.

[he'll clarify that, at least.]

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[ oh. she shifts under the blanket again. ]

I'd do it again. So.

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You really are too good, miss Beau.

[especially to someone as useless as he is.]

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[ a long, long pause, and then slowly, she starts pulling herself up to sit. she looks about as bad as zombie hunter does. ]

Not really. I'm a piece of shit. But. [ sniff. ] We need to get that bullet out of your shoulder still, babe.

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I can ask young master Thymos, later. They... they all know, it doesn't need to be you.

[he lets his hand drop so that she can move, frowning at how bad she looks.]

If I promise to do that, will you promise to have a bath and eat something?

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[ her jaw works. he gets a flash of - uselessness? just briefly. ]

Not hungry.

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Miss Beau, you still need to...

[please take care of yourself in the middle of this glass case of emotions.]

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[ no, let her self destruct, she's really good at it

also have some self hatred, guilt, and panic too, those are good. they're kind of - distant? like she's not quite the one feeling it. ]

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Anya and young master Kunihiro both brought me food. I still have some left.

[he's not the best at this, but he's trying to gently tug her up to get her to stand... and doing his best to ignore those feelings, damn.]

And who's doing that, they aren't helping at all-!

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[ aw, thanks, buddy. she stands, slowly. her foot's kind of killing her a little after her fight earlier so she's slow, but she lets him. ]

Hunter is. [ she says, quietly. ]

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[oh. well, now he feels like a dick, which she can feel a little bit.]

Miss Beau, you two are still...?

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[ it's okay, he didn't know!! ]

Mmhm. [ which is part of why she's flipping out so bad. ] It's - it's overwhelming.

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...a couple of the ones I was linked to were able to use it to try to help calm me, before.

[just. putting that out there. maybe anyone connected to him can try to like, good-vibes hunter into chilling out for a little bit.]

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Yeah. Me too. I've been trying to send him stuff in return but it isn't... working very well.

[ sniff. ] I felt you trying earlier. I appreciate it.

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There has to be something that can be done, still...

[anyway, he's just kind of guiding her along if she'll let him. let's switch rooms.

the obvious answer is knocking hunter the fuck out somehow but he really doesn't wanna say it to beau.]